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Sunday, September 17
Enough now.
Well, I had an eye opening experience last night. I went out with Cindy and when I got home I decided I had to talk to him. STUPID, I know. But after a really long conversation with him and some break-up sex I have some closure. He has moved past our break-up and he is fine. I need to work on being fine too. It was a rough night, but I'm glad I did it. I know now how he feels about everything and there is no doubt that it is over. Doesn't make it hurt any less. But I'll move on from here. I don't know where the road goes, but at least now I found the start of it. Now if I can just start moving. It's so sad to me that it's over, but I need to realize that everything happens for a reason. And as my mom says, "this too shall pass." PC told me there's nowhere to go but up. I guess he's right. So here I go. Enough now.
Sunday, September 17
Singing in the sun...
I got my finance outprocessing checklist done this morning, that's very exciting, I know... Now I have to balance my checkbook, which will prove to be quite depressing after all the moo-lah I paid out on last weekend’s shenanigans. But the really, really good news is that I found myself SINGING today. I was just walking into the housing office and I caught myself singing this song that I love and I think is so sexy. It was cool to realize that I am feeling (at least a little bit) better about things. I am going to go buy myself a guitar as soon as I have the funds and I'm going to learn some songs. I need a hobby and PC always told me I was a natural at the guitar. Not that I'm only doing it because he said that, I really like playing and after 22 years of piano lessons and not being able to play for squat, maybe I'll try something else. Haha. Plus a guitar is a lot less expensive than a piano. AND on top of ALL THAT today is a BEAUTIFUL day and I am going to go enjoy some of it.
Sunday, September 17
NEW SONG NEW SONG
I just put that new song on my profile and I LOVE IT so much. It’s Angels & Airwaves, “The Adventure.” The part about not being able to live or breathe "unless you do this with me" reminds me of PC. But not in a sad way. It just reminds me of how much we were in love and stuff. Anyway, enjoy my new profile song. The old one was The Wreckers "Cigarettes", a good break up song. I have to go buy the A&A CD now. Okay, I'm audi.
Check back next week for some hard core napping and love math.
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